I am quite anxious today and I pray that this one good thing can happen. It might not be the best solution to our major problem, but it will help us so much... Maybe relieve the stress for just awhile. I guess we will see.

I must just sleep to pass the time as I eagerly await today's future.

My pregnancy has not become easier. While I've probably had enough stomach pains and nausea to last me a lifetime, my body has only experienced brief days of physical pain. I mean, all the pain was physical but only on some days would my back ache beyond belief or my legs cramp up. That was, until now. No matter what way I lay, I am extremely uncomfortable. Joseph tries to spoon with me and it just feels like I'm being crushed (even when he is lightly touching me) and my whole body just aches which ends up with us on different sides of the bed completely. Which isn't what I want and I guess doesn't matter too much since even when he isn't touching me, I feel like shit. We were watching a movie last night in bed and I was a complete wiggle worm because my fat belly and achy limbs kept me from staying still. I woke up this morning after a night of agony and my shoulders burned, my armed burned, my whole body just felt like straight shit. My lower back has also started to pain me. If I stand in one spot for more than like a minute, my back has these horrid sharp pains. It's not fun at all. I also find myself becoming very winded for no reason. Since our house has recently been sprayed for chemicals, I had to rewash all of our dishes last night and as I was standing at the sink, I got so winded and didn't feel so great. I had my cleaning gloves on and just went and sat on my bedroom floor for a few minutes until I felt okay again. It is exhausting feeling like this.

On a brighter note, Joseph and I adopted a new pup into the family. One that we hope is here to stay. We have had so many dogs in the passed and ended up having to find new homes for them simply for the fact that they were pit bulls. Our new addition is Tokin, a catahoula mix. When we first got him, they told us he was a bulldog and that he was nine weeks old which I presume to both be lies. He doesn't have any of the physical or mental trains of a bulldog. And when we first got him, he was literally emaciated. His hip bones and back leg bones were completely visible to the point were it was disgusting. We drove like two hours just to pick him up and it was so worth it. I'm not sure how he was treated but even now he is very skittish and kind of socially awkward. We are trying to work with him and he is attending a puppy class on the seventh so we will see how he does with that. It's been about three weeks since we have had him and I'm thinking that now he is about ten weeks old. He is no longer a scrawny pup either, he is a fat-so. A healthy fatty! He is doing really good and Owen seems to just love him as they run around together all day long. We have had tons and tons of people inquire about him. People who literally just believe we will just give him up. We had a friends dad offer a hundred dollars for him, both Joseph's sister and brother want him, and another friend of ours said he would take him. Joseph's brother actually got pissy with us because we said we weren't giving him away and claimed we didn't need another dog with a baby on the way. I cannot stand how people act like I'm going to be incapable of doing anything when my baby girl is here. I will be able to raise my daughter and my two dogs perfectly fine, thank you.

People just make me laugh. Anyway, I need to snooze for a few hours.